i m still happy. (: i m not sure whether its a hint for me. but may be it is. i m happy enuf to see ur hint. maybe it not for me. but hu cares.

i know you dun like to hav so much worry in ur life. dun worry so much ok. i juz wan to know more about you tats all. at least lemme be a gd fren of u or izzit for? my english like #%@$% liao. HAHA. a short one.

i went back to hear songs from anime. HIGH and MIGHTY color still produces nice songs, plus maaki is damn cute.

WEE! haha. ignore the post made ytd. was not thinking when i typed tat. too emo liao. HAHA.

wad a wonderful day! great results, maybe not tat gd. a 38/50 and 38.5/50. not bad arh for OC and PIPC. HAHA. PIPC supposed to be 40/50! tat *@$^@ teacher mark like some idiot. nv open her eyes properly. now i hav to write a letter to tell the teacher to correct my paper. then i will hav 2A and 2B. i wan a GPA of at least 3.5! HAHA. not easy de la. anywae, qris had his surprise birthday today when weihua suggested to buy birthday cake. i pretty sure its her. lol. weijian end up eating all the fruits, including one yellow strange looking one. siewhuey bluff him to eat it. HAHA. damn sour... i can tell frm his face. this few day harzid has been acting damn funny. 1st at CSAS. we were doing an act abt active talking and he was acting a guy who juz got caught smoking in sch. in mid of acting, he accidently said "cheebye". HAHA. we were laughing damn hard. and the teacher was like shocked. HAHA. he said sorry, however after like 5-8 sentences, WTF could be heard frm him. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH somemore. HAHA. we said its his natural instinct to say tat. HAHA.
2nd. eh. nvm. cant say the 2nd one. it a secret. HAHA. wait. arh. i rmb the other one. we were walking to the busstop when he suddenly did some lame stuff. yi was walking beside us mah, then he suddenly "rub" himself on her. something like rubbing or dancing like tat. then he turn back, CHESTER was right behind! HAHA. laugh laugh somemore. damn paiseh la for him.

ahhh.. cant laugh anymore. HAHA. i saw u in sch tday. but nv call you la. so paiseh. HAHA. oh yah. TP portal suk. i cant use IE7 to do work in tp website. gay... then i downloaded opera. BLEAH. dun work. i downloaded mozilla. BLEAH. failed.. tp portal owned all IE. HAHA. i going to watch intial D anime now. wee! oh and again ignore my last entries. i was juz doing some QQ. HAHA

ok. after some chatting wf some frens, i realize maybe it is a mistake for liking u in the 1st place. listen... even frm young, i always had these fear of losing frens you know. a gd example will be when i go wf my frens to eat, maybe the table got 4 space then there is 5 ppl. and i m left alone sitting there. no matter how close i m to them, i would feel uneasy. i would be tinking "maybe they hate me". YES... i feel tat way. even during choosing of grps in projects. i m scared i would be the one left out. secretly thinking "CHOOSE ME" the fact is i m afraid i m left alone in this world alone without anyone. therefore i treasure every single fren. u may tink its idiotic to tink this way, but hey everyone has his or her own fears. so wad i fear of losing frens. friendship is always an important thing in my life. i treasure everyone around me. YES. i may not show it. but tat doesnt mean i dun treat you as a fren or wad. i not really gd at expressing myself. i live my own life wf this fake optimism. i act like everyday was my birthday and dun show my real emotion. i got tat 16 for my olevel when i was aimming like 12? i still could say "who cares. lets go pool!" do u tink i was really did not care abt my results? no. i care. in fact alot. i juz didnt wanna spoil the mood for those who were celebrating their wonderful results. i m juz too complicated.


i not rdy to forgo any friendship with my other frens over u. i m juz too coward to face the fact i hav to give up something. maybe i m. NO. its not maybe . ITS I M.. its a big mistake. how i wish i could juz turn back in time and not did tat mistake of actually liking you. i wish you well. and of coz all my frens. miss all of you guys. juz treat the entries below these as rubbish. nth was said nth was understood.

ok. i m stuck on wad to write. haha.
let talk abt tat gal, u.
i m pretty sure i like u u know. i not sure u r taking my hints. HAHA. maybe u r not tat clever or my hint arent obvious enuf. nah. i tink u r intelligent enuf. lol. muz be my hints tat are too weak. they r not supposed to be WAY TO OBVIOUS anywae. haha.

A 101 Guide to find out if i LIKE you. HAHA
1) I talk to you alot online on msn. In real life too, if i see you . (real life abit less. wait! very very very little. HAHA)

2) I loved to make fun of you. tats my way of getting ur abit attention. (i do tat to almost anywae anywae. so is a bit difficult to find out thru this)

3) U actually react very funnily when i make fun of you. example: you do ur pouting and ur replies makes me laugh damn hard behind my com screen. HAHA. i love FUNNY ppl!

4) I actually read ur blog to see how u feeling. at least i know u r upset or happy, so i can console you or something. HAHA. its preety difficult to find out thru this. i reading almost alot ppl blog now. damn alot. lol


so if you read tat guide and u tink its u, tell me. HAHA juz kidding. its a joke. hint me back PLS! haha. i real scared i cant talk to u next time.

finaally, my hme is renovating. in approx 4-5 days and i hav to shift to somewhr else. haha. better start packing up. i m getting paranoid these few days. juz becoz u didnt come online, i tot u blocked me on msn. HAHA. how stupid can i get. yea. pretty stupid... HAHA oh well. wad can i do?

weee! i had time to do more artty stuff, but my main comp was booked. haha. i going to recommend DJ MAX to anyone who bought PSP. its damn fun! i m like LV 84 with the help of my sisters. played over 750+ songs. (wait.. not tat there is 750 songs in djmax. but is 750times of all the songs) still far frm unlocking all the stuff. here is the artist line up for djmax 2. forte escape is sweet! love them.



i pretty much end up playing psp most of the time while waiting for u to be online. haha. decided to quit all games that require to run full screen programs. i cant see whether u r online with tat screen being covered! wan to be the 1st to talk to u when u r online. haha. wadeva. i m so easily influenced. 1st yue with tat blog designning thingy. then rabbit with that song. argh. its stuck in my head. haha. i m always getting influenced esp on decision making sometimes. i juz wan to avoid and end arguements. dislike conflict. so i always end up being the one saying 'wadeva la". haha. so is like unwillingly influenced.

sigh. sch tmr. gotta sleep.

i really wanna know more about you.

hehe.. seriously i had nth to do. then did some drawings wf FLASH. haha. then edit abit. VOLIA! a nicer picture. pictures i mean. haha. two 2 two 2 to be exact. one angel and other a lovesick boy (its not me, i m not tat short. LOL).




lovesick? YES! love and love and MORE LOVE! copyrighted by: nigel 2007


NEED an ANGEL? yes! i need HOPE and FAITH from you! copyrighted by: nigel 2007




wings of angel
beautiful wings by shuli and the girl by nigel. LOL.too big to be display. go see urself. HAHA.
copyrighted and patent and trademarked by: nigel and shuli 2006

i didnt know u know the art of invisbility. coz i didnt see u in sch. HAHA. oh well. i m bored. draw draw draw. ask me for picture dedications!. FREE! haha. i m seriously bored. ops. how many times hav i said tat? ask ME to draw!

so i been playing wf my photoshop and flash, all thanks to ah yue. influenced me. i see her make so nice blogskins. then i felt tat itch to play wf my designing programs. HAHA. so blame on yue!



volia! dawn of light is born. random rubbish made.

finally sch has reopened. haha. i was so bored at hme during holiday tat i missed sch. yea.. was pretty eager to get my results. got back e-maths (engine maths) and meb (mass energy balance tday. was kinda disappointed wf my meb results. only 35/50. i mean wtf. i was aiming 40 at least? HAHA. i didnt realli study, so i dun tink i deserved 40 anywae. I MUZ WORK HARD! hehe. for maths, FOURTY-SEVEN HALF! YAY! all that eric's teachings had given me tat high score. haha. now for PIPC and OC. prolly get it in 2-3 days time.

ok lets not talk abt studies and sch now. haha. i let qris played djmax 2 fentanest juz now. and he gave up half way. haha. sabo-ed him.

sigh. didnt see u today at all. oh well. there is always tmr and tmr and tmr and tmr. yeah. 850days. HAHA

i prolly upload the angel picture i drew last time wf shuli. tot the wing were well drawn by shuli. :D
song: Ikarus by NieN


still i m in conflict. HOW? wad to do?

ok. i m really going to bust if i dun say it. my emotions and feelings hav reached my MAX CAP. FULL! FILLED right to the BRIM. i wanna tell u who u r yet... i cant bring myself to say it. maybe u dun understand y, but i hav my reason u know.

number01: wad IF i was rejected? no. i m not afraid of being rejected, but the fact tat we may not be even frens anymore if i tell u who u r becoz u n me will prolly feel arkward seeing or talking to each other in the future.

number02: ok there is no number02. number01 is bad enuf to prevent me frm telling u who r u.

sigh. lets see how it goes.


song: fentanest by earbreaker and eszett
its a level nine song that has difficulty like a twelve or eleven. HAHA.

i m afraid. really..

Woah! i got so many things to say, but yet i dunno how to write it out in words. haha. u know... i waiting everyday for u to be online, so i could talk to u. not sure if wad r u even tink. but... oh well. its ok. time will show the path and i juz hav to follow it. (:

ha! the cds (cross displin subject)! had a preetty hard time thinking wad to choose. i was planning on doing japanese or psychology at 1st. (had a deal wf qris tat we will take jap.) i had to choose 5 preferences but the problem was i didnt hav 5 in my mind. asked most my frens around including, hy and rabbit and they all had jap in their mind. so JAPANESE here i COME!



wish i could talk to you everyday. know more abt u. but still.. u dun know who u r.

Yay! My new bloggy is ready! HAHA. thank you RABBIT again for helping me, this "dumb" guy to make this bloggy. thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you .THANK YOU times infinite. i tired of typing the same thing. mind u i didnt use the "copy and paste' function. dun complain wo mei you jia jiao ok.. haha

ok. lets not digress from the real topic. oh wait. wads the real topic? eh. i suddenly had this feeling i needed a blog so i could "throw and dump" all my feelings and thoughts in there. so voila! a blog. a blue one. for once in my life, i miss sch man. the fun i hav at sch. my frens both sec and poly, miss them now. lucky for me sch is coming like in two days. haha. i can feel my right eye twitching reali bad. something bad muz hav happen. haha. lets juz hope its a sign saying someone i hate juz got knockdown by a car or truck. maybe a broken leg or coma at least?


juz kidding.

realli.. i was joking. wait my right eye is still twitching. mind u. at least 10mins hav past since i 1st said my eye was twitching. i suddenly felt we behaved damn funny last time in secondary sch. u know. like had some funny moments with ur best frens. rus, shuli, elman, yy, flo and silei. +enchou( thoough he not in my class, but still i known him longer than the word "best friend".)
kinda wish i had a time machine so i could go back in time to sec four and stay tat way forever. haha. going play GE now wf enchou. no.. i m waiting to play. haha




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