friends or relation?
i know how i feel towards you. but i dont actually walk to you to talk and stuff like what others might do. perhaps i am a bit a afraid. of coz not, not afraid of telling you i like you because i have no courage to tell you that but it is because it daunts me that the arkward situation i might get myself in, in the sense what if you feel arkward talking to me next time? then we wont be friends anymore? this thought really put me in this dilemma. (wow, i actually spelled this correctly.) i need more confidence with myself, perhaps a bottle of increased self-esteem. then maybe, juz maybe i could get myself over with this. friends is really a touchy topic to me. i know how i m afraid to be left out in projects, outings, you know the feeling of getting left behind with no one there with you is really frightening. like i said before friends are really important to me. i cant bear to lose any of them. i may be not be as caring in real life, but i know i lack the ability to express how i actually cared about other person. i seems to be making fun of her/him but actually to me, it shows you are my friend.
i need to take some initiative to talk to you. i shall need more of THAT next time. so 1 more in my ingredient list. hope i can get them from somewhere. (:
hope to see you soon. speaking of which, i havent see you recently. my phone isnt ringing. DAMN. haha. hope it would. (:is home where i call it the place for me to rest and be happy in? coz i may not feeling that. it seems the arguement abt the other topic always seems to resurface at every meal every hour. is it alright to anger the others in other to help one people? esp that one that refuses to be helped? it sickens me to be at home. hope i m out soon. really soon.
acted at 12:57 am (:
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